2016 Nepal – Rebecca Kim

God is Healer

And a woman was there who had been subject to bleeding for twelve years, but no one could heal her. She came up behind him and touched the edge of his cloak, and immediately her bleeding stopped. “Who touched me?” Jesus asked. When they all denied it, Peter said, “Master, the people are crowding and pressing against you.” But Jesus said, “Someone touched me; I know that power has gone out from me.” Then the woman, seeing that she could not go unnoticed, came trembling and fell at his feet. In the presence of all the people, she told why she had touched him and how she had been instantly healed. Then he said to her, “Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace.” – Luke 8:43-48

Starting the 11th of January to the 21st of January, I travelled to Nepal with a team of 13 people from the various New Philly campuses. I came into this mission trip feeling very underprepared and inadequate. However God was able to use me for His good. We were able to firsthand experience signs and wonders that I had only read about in the Bible. And the crazier thing was that God was using me to perform these supernatural healings!

When I received the email that I had been assigned as team doctor and read through my list of responsibilities, I felt very inadequate. Not only in the medical sense, but also as it entailed being an intercessor for the health and healing of the entire team. However, I quickly realized it was not by my own doing but rather the power that God in us that would allow for the healing of both our team members and the native congregations.

One moment that really shifted my thinking and squashed the enemy’s lies of inadequacy was our first ministry event: a youth conference at the Lord’s Assembly Church. During the afternoon service there was an altar call for people who wanted healing. I nervously waited in the front as people lined up. I was so afraid to lay hands because I had so much self-doubt. As I approached the Nepalese lady in front of me I saw that her eyes were shut and she was praying earnestly to God. She had stepped out in faith just as the bleeding woman in the Book of Luke who had touched Jesus’s cloak with faith. I realized in that moment it was no longer about me and my insecurities. I was just an intermediary vessel being used by God to faithfully serve in His healing work. I got a translator to ask what the lady was suffering from and she told me that she had had pain all down her side, a sore wrist, and a migraine. I found myself stepping out in faith and crying out to God. I heard myself as I prayed and I remember thinking I did not sound like my usual, soft spoken self. I was proclaiming God’s love for this lady, and I was praying with full faith that God would heal. However, as soon as I finished, my intellect took over and I felt doubt creep up in my heart regarding her healing. I remember I moved onto pray for someone else without confirming whether the pain had gone. A part of this had to do with the fact I did not know the steps to go through in praying for healing, but a small part of me also just did not want to find out, with fear that she hadn’t been healed. Once the altar ministry time finished Pastor Caleb proceeded to ask the people that had been healed to raise their hands. To my surprise the lady I had prayed for lifted her hand. Ye Eun our historian approached her to speak to her about her healing and I ran over to hear what had happened. The interpreter was able to tell us that she had been 100% healed of her headache and her pain. I honestly could not believe it! I was so overjoyed. I was taken aback that someone like me with such little faith could HEAL. God used me with all my flaws to do His mighty work!

This experience changed me by helping me realize that all I need to do is to be faithful to what God assigns me, and to be present and willing to follow His leading. It was not about me and my ability; it was all God. I found myself stepping more and more into a place of faith and boldness as each ministry event ended! I was experiencing daily the joy of living by God’s leading, which is something I had desired so strongly. For the first time in a long time my relationship with God was not dry; it was exciting and dynamic! For the native congregations, as they saw the healings you could see that their faith was rising as well. Also, I believe they were able to comprehend once again that our God was a good, good God!! Many people in Nepal are oppressed and persecuted for their faith, and with the recent devastating earthquake there was a lot of disillusionment. Therefore, I believe the miracles released were once again a confirmation of His goodness, encouraging His children in their spiritual walks.

At the second ministry site in a village church in Ramantar I was able to give my testimony about freedom though forgiveness, detailing my struggles in my relationship with my father. During the altar ministry time following my testimony, I was able to pray for two girls that were being persecuted by their fathers for their faith. As they spoke they could not stop themselves from crying. They had so much inner healing that needed to take place and I began to sow in and pray. As I prayed I felt my heart softening and a genuine compassion growing within me! I realized that rather than my own limited compassion, I was being moved by God’s heart for these girls. I cried out for inner healing and a strengthening of their faith. It was not only physical healing that God released but also inner healing.

But even on a personal level I was able to experience so much inner healing. I have always had insecurities with how I interact with other people. I always felt as an introvert I was bad with new people and also had a fear that others would not want to engage with me. These insecurities had really surfaced in the weeks leading up to missions as I struggled with my role on the welcoming team back at New Philly Sydney. I remember during the affirmation and appreciation time on the last night feeling so nervous because somehow I made myself believe that no one would have anything good to say about me. To my surprise people poured out words of affirmation that encouraged me beyond words. The most memorable moment was when one of the members spoke up saying she was so upset to hear that I believed that I was not good with other people (I had said this in passing during my affirmation of another member of team). She had tears as she spoke of her grief that the enemy had tricked me into believing this lie. At that moment I realized that there negative thoughts I had of myself were not reality but rather the enemy’s lie. I remember feeling a huge burden being lifted off me. I started reflecting on the fact that I had been able to form close bonds with all the members whom I had not known before arriving in Nepal. They accepted me for who I was and went further to love me for me. I didn’t have to be loud or outgoing to gain acceptance; I was being myself. This was clear evidence that I had been believing a lie. The feelings that I would not be able to get along with people were lies planted by the enemy. The acceptance I received was clear evidence of the truth that I am loved.

I would like to close my testimony by sharing prayer points for this beautiful nation where I received so much breakthrough:

  • Pray for an end to persecution of Nepalese Christians. Pray that they will not just survive and scrape by, but that they will prosper in the nation and become people of influence!
  • Pray for the Nepalese Christians that may have been disillusioned by the earthquakes, and hardened by the devastation that ensued. Pray for their hearts become tender again. Pray grace to allow them to hope again for their nation and proclaim once again that God is a good, good father!!

God is the one who can use people with faith the size of a mustard seed to do GREAT things. He is a good father who can heal physical ailments, but also inner turmoil and hurt. He is even able to release breakthrough to the minister in the midst of them ministering. It is not about us striving to the point where we think we are good enough to do His work. Rather it is about surrendering our full trust to God and being faithful to His calling. I thank God for the opportunity to minister in Nepal with a beautiful team of sisters and brothers. I feel I have grown exponentially in all aspects of my spiritual life, and more importantly I have been able to step out in faith knowing that God will always work through me.