2016 Nepal – Daisy Kim

Selflessness Re-defined

For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life a ransom for many. – Mark 10:45

Jesus is selfless- we all know that. But I experienced a deep understanding of selflessness through His people in Nepal. There are many different stories I could share, as the Lord unexpectedly healed many parts of my heart on this trip. But I would like to share about some moments in particular that have deeply impacted me and have permanently changed my heart posture towards selflessness- in a way that I can never be the same again.

After about a 12 hour van ride up the mountains, our team took a bus through the rivers and rocky roads for an additional hour, then hiked up a rocky mountain to arrive at a village in Hetauda, where we were to minister to about 120 elementary and middle school students. In the midst of all this travelling, Pastor BP (our local contact) mentioned with a peaceful smile, “Quite a trip, right? This is our regular ministry.” This is a man whose house had collapsed less than 9 months ago during the major earthquake in April 2015. He is still searching for permanent housing. He has a wife and 3 children, along with his own church that he shepherds in the capital city of Kathmandu. As our team continued to travel through countless hours of van rides on narrow and bumpy unpaved roads, I was in continually in awe of the selfless passion and love for God that I witnessed through Pastor BP and other Christians of Nepal.

After our ministry at one village church in Ramantar, a small crowd gathered at the village entrance to wave farewell to our team as we left in the van. It was then that Pastor BP told us these people had walked more than 4 hours to attend our services, and that they would not be able to go home that day. It was humbling to see God’s sons and daughters sacrifice so much to receive His word and ministry. Their hunger for His Spirit and their love for Christ were unbelievable. But it was even more humbling to be chosen as God’s vessel to minister to His precious children. I have heard stories of people walking for hours and days following Jesus in the Bible, but I never imagined that people would do the same to receive God’s ministry from me. I was in repentance as I was reminded of all the times I had complained and made excuses to not go to church, especially when we had services at New Philly Sillim sanctuary, which is on top of a tiny hill compared to the mountain village churches in Nepal. I was humbled that God would still choose to use me as His vessel to minister to these who love Him so much more selflessly than I do. I then had a deeper revelation of the fact that I was chosen to minister not because of my qualifications, but because of God’s intention to pour out His ministry and love upon His selfless followers in Nepal.

But this selflessness was not just limited to the Nepali leaders and congregation members. As our team ministered to young children throughout the trip, I was reminded of my passion for the victims of human trafficking around the world. I didn’t get a chance to research the specific statistics of Nepal, but my heart broke knowing that the Nepali children are not immune from such vulnerability. So I started asking the Lord, “Who is protecting the children here? Is there anyone aware that these children need to be protected?” At our last revival service in Ratomate, we met a Caucasian girl named Jen from Seattle, USA. She has been in Nepal for the past 4 months, taking care of young girls at a girl’s home nearby, providing shelter for victims of human trafficking and for those who are vulnerable to be kidnapped into the sex trade. I felt like God was saying, “See? No need to worry. I’m on it.” I was comforted to know that the Lord was at hand, but once again very challenged by Jen, who gave up her comfortable life in America to live in a mountain village in a country where she doesn’t speak the language in order to provide shelter for God’s children.

At this same service was also a particularly powerful ministry time that gives me hope in the selflessness that God has deposited in the next generation. Near the end of our service in Ratomate, Pastor Caleb, our team preacher, led an altar call for everyone under the age of 20 who wanted to commit their youth to Jesus. Praise the Lord, 55 young souls came up to the front with hands lifted high, crying out for more of the Spirit! But the story doesn’t end here. After a powerful time of altar ministry, Pastor Caleb exhorted these youth to pray for the older people in the room who needed physical healing. This was in order to activate their faith in the power of prayer as they were filled with the Holy Spirit. As the youth stood up to pray for the elderly, there was a shift in the atmosphere. Generational gaps were being bridged, hardened hearts were being softened, wounded hearts were being healed, hope and faith were being restored, and lo and behold- we witnessed many physical healings that day. Hallelujah! Truly the Lord is raising up a new generation of powerful warriors for His glory- warriors who like Christ desire to serve, not just be served. Warriors who will go out in the anointing of the Holy Spirit for His glory.

When I love others, including Christ, I have often wanted to give my most, but not my all. I would sometimes find myself calculating the consequences, even in this life that I claim to “live for Jesus.” But on this trip, my understanding of “selflessness” has been shaken and challenged in both the love I have for God and for other people. What does it mean to selflessly love the Lord? Given the circumstances, would I set aside a couple days to walk 4 hours to hear someone speak from His work and receive prayer? And what does it mean to selflessly love my family, my friends, my neighbors, and my enemies? Would I consider giving up my comfortable life for the sake of those who need the Father’s love? Would I be able to do this in a country where Christians are an extreme minority? Truthfully, I cannot say that I could, but I can say that I do feel closer to saying “yes” than I was before this trip. I am so thankful for this opportunity to meet God’s beautiful people in Nepal, to be humbled by the fact that God wants to use me regardless of my level of selflessness, and to be challenged in this way to be more and more like Christ.

Prayer Requests
Since the major earthquake that devastated Nepal last year, more than 600 churches have lost their buildings. But our local contact, Pastor BP has a vision. He remembers going up to the top of Namsan Tower in Seoul, Korea and seeing crosses of Christian churches scattered across the city. His vision is now to see crosses, each representing a thriving church, scattered across the city of Kathmandu. I ask that you pray covering over Pastor BP’s family and ministry. Pray that the Lord would continue to protect and provide, and especially provide a permanent home for his family. Pray that more souls would encounter the Father’s love and come to know Jesus as their Lord and Savior. Pray that we’d see hope restored and churches established across the towns and cities of this nation. Pray that these churches be filled with selfless leaders and congregation members giving their all to live and love for God’s glory.

I sincerely thank you so much for your support that made this trip possible.
Your prayer and financial seeds sowed HOPE in the nation of Nepal, established the Nepali people in their true identities in Christ, and increased their FAITH in the Lord’s healing power and love for them.
I pray that the Lord’s pleasure will manifest in your life through His favor and blessings as you have partnered with him in His Kingdom work in the nations.